Monday, September 21, 2009

Me and My Girlfriend (amendment)sorry

Hi!! I'm Derek...this is my 1st time using this blog, never thought that i'm using it..let get to the part about me and my girl...Her name is Tan Pei Yong, well she doesn't like ppl calling by her full name..just call her Pei Yong or Yong..She's born in year 1987, she's a nice girl, quiet, cheerfull person, kind, never give up that easily and there is so many things about her..Can't say that much about her in the blog..i was lucky to met her..how did i know her??hmmmm...can't tell that's our secret...hehehe..just joking..1st time i met her in klcc at TGV after working that was during saturday..we had lunch and started our conversation she was really shy so was i..after our lunch we took a walk around the shopping center, we were suppose to watch movie but our timing were not enough so we plan to walk..while walking both of us chit chat about ourself adn so on...after the whole day and time past day by day..we started falling in love with each other...On the 26 of MAY i i'm not mistaken(geezz..wat kind of boyfriend i am..??=.=") me and my frens called me out to watch movie which was " Night At The Museum 2 " at 1 utama...and then the story goes on till it's time for all of us to watch movie...while i was watching movie, there was scene which was so romantic(i'm not sure about your opinion about this movie) i was actually wanted to hold her hand but i was scared and she also thought of holding my hand and she had the same feeling as me...After the movie, i ask her how was the movie?? did you enjoy the movie?? She said yes and we started talking about it and some other topic until it was time to go..my fren name Pee Sheng(he's a real joker..heheh) fetch her home..on the way back i kept on thinking Derek be a man, do the right think..i was actually brave enough to do it, i held her hand in my fren's car (they didn't notice it) well er this is kinda weird for a guy like me held her hand in someone's car but who cares..if there is a chance why dun you take your chances to express your feeling to her..(am i right guys??) let's get back to the story..hmmmm..where was i??oh okie, i was afraid to that she might reject me but she didn't i was so happy and i remember wat she said to me, she said that my hand are warm and i feel so comfortable when i hold your hand..and i said i'm here to keep you warm when you are cold(talking softly to her)..i didn't get to talk much in the car cause we already reach to her front door and i said goodbye to her..i watch her from outside until she get in the house safely...

And time passes by so quickly..she did stay over in my house and introduce her to my family..and there was this problem in me which was my attitude...i always complain that she's fat but she is not actually fat and i complain that she can't even speak english properly...and i complain so much about her..and argue with my mum and she saw it..she kept telling me not to argue with your mum and my temper was kinda bad so one day i felt that there is something wrong with our relationship and ofcourse we talk about it..she told me everything which i did not realise wat i did..i felt so sorry that i made her cry and i hurt her feeling so deeply..at that time i was afraid to loose her..to tell you honestly i cried although i'm a guy..guys shouldn't cry at that time i felt so much preasure in me i can't stand it and i sang a song which she really wan me to sing in front of her the song name is " the way i do "from marcos hernandez...i felt so bad and i should not have said those word to hurt her feeling and i cried again..i should not have said that to her i repeated so many times...i feel like shouting it out in my room but i can't and i cried and i cried and i pray to god and i pray lord i dun wan to loose her, i dun wan to loose her i can't loose her..i feel so heart pain and i dun know wat to do lord...pls lord guide me and brighten up my path lord(still crying so badly)"...i just can't believe how can i hurt my girlfriend's feeling..HOW CAN I SAID SUCH A CRUEL WAY !!?? i promise her that i change myself to be a better man..i'm not going to disappoint her again..to be honest i dun wan to loose her cause she is the women of my life which i wan to be with her till the day i am a old man and i'll hold her hand till the day i die...well guys out there pls pls do appreciate wat she does for you...give her every piece of your love, don't ever take the step that i did...i really regreted for saying such word which i hurt her and i made her cried...all the while she did not gave up trying to change me and i can't loose she is everything to me..

i truly LOVE her from the bottom of my heart and i missed her so badly..

once again guys out there do not hurt your girlfriend like wat i did..love her as much as you can cause there is not much time for us..we do not know wat is going to happen to you next day, next week, next month and next year...

SWEETHEART PLS FORGIVE ME FOR WAT I SAID AND DID TO YOU THAT I MADE YOU CRIED AND HURT SO DEEPLY...

LOVE YOU SWEETHEART

Thursday, September 17, 2009

More Than words

Saying I love you,
Is not the words,
I want to hear from you,
It's not that I want you,
Not to say but if you only knew,
How easy,
it would be to show me how you feel,

More than words,
is all you have to do,
to make it real,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,

What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,

What would you say,
if I took those words away,

Then you couldn't make things new,
Just by saying I love you,

It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,
It's more than words,
It's more than what you say,
It's the things you do,
oh yeah,

Now that I've tried to,
talk to you and make you understand,
All you have to do,
is close your eyes,
And just reach out your hands,
and touch me,
Hold me close don't ever let me go,

More than words,
is all I ever needed you to show,
Then you wouldn't have to say,
that you love me,
Cause I'd already know,

What would you do,
if my heart was torn in two,

More than words to show you feel,
That your love for me is real,
What would you say,
if I took those words away,
Then you couldn't make things new,(no no)
Just by saying I love you.....

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

What i've been doing during the past...??

hihi!!although i have a 25 days left..i am confident in this cause i know where i went wrong but being over confident is not a good thing..i got to be patient for this whole month..well i can't wait for the trip to kota kinabalu next month...although we are still frens for a month i may not know wat is going to happen for the both of us..i always think about the pass wat we did but i can't actually tell you everything about it cause this is our private life(dun ask me why and err...just dun ask) hehehe..XP..well it kinda fun and happy when we were together of course la..i remember when she 1st came in my house and to meet my parents..she was actually shy, well yeah everybody are shy when they 1st meet your bf or gf's parents..once my mum met her, my mum really like her so much and especially my sister she was like " jie jie, jie jie" and she kept sticking with my darling..it's like a a glu sticking on her..my sister like her alot..i remember my sister ask my gf "are you my kor kor's girlfren?" i said yeah but i told her "dun be so busy body lah..you ar" hehehe..wat an evil brotherXP..and time passes by so quickly so one day she plan to go back to her home town which is in Malacca so i ask her can i follow her and she agreed...i went and bought chicken essence for her mother but i dun know wat to buy for her sister and so i plan to cook a wonderfull dinner for everyone i cook spaghetti, bacons(pork) and and sausages..they really like it..she always ask me whether i'm okie to stay at her house cause it was hot but i didn't as long i'm with her i'll be fine...well guys i have to stop her at the moment cause i'm in the office i'll get back home and continue our story..chaozzz..

~Derek~

I REALLY REGRETED FOR TREATING YOU LIKE THIS

i feel like shouting but i can't...i feel like i wan to cry but i can't anymore but it hurt from the inside..i dun know whether is she readin this blog or not but i just wanted to her to read the blog to see how i feel now..i know how is her feeling now i know that she is still angry of me for wat i said and wat i do...i just can't stop missing her so badly, i wan to hold her hands again, i wan to keep her warm again, i just can't stop thinking about her every second, every minute, every hour and everyday..i just can't stop..i know by telling you and promising you are useless but i wan to prove to you that i can do it plss dun push me away...i need you to be with me without you i'm nobody..you are the one who can change me, you are the one who can make me to be a person, you are the one who i can never give that easily when i fall...

i know that there is a hole in your heart i wan to patch it back to how it was and i just hope that there is chance for me to patch it up for you..I'm sorry for not appreciate you for this 3 month...i know it is too late to appreciate you but this time i promise that i would appreciate and to sacrifice my time for you...

Monday, September 14, 2009

My Feeling For You

i just wan to tell you that everybody relationship is all the same...is just whether he or she wan to give him or her a chance or not..i know that you wan me to sei sum but i can't cause i really love you and i cannot loose you...

it is not that i loose everything is that i loose one part of my life and that part of my life is important for me although i said things that hurt you and i dun have planning in future and couldn't make decision by my own but your are still part of my life and

i know that you think about our future how am i going to treat you..but i wan you to know one thing i wan to hold your hand and be with you together to see wat happen in the world and future..i know i still have the chance to be with you..i hope you read this msg...all the things i said i all from my heart and how i feel..i just hope that there is chance for me and you to be together again..


thank you..

there is some more..

3) Micheal Learn to Rock - Take Me to Your Heart
I remember this song when she miss me so badly and she cried in the room.. :)
that was the 1st song i sang for her and she listen to it everynight..oh ya she love the chorus part

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Songs That She Like

hi..i'm back once again..okie let's get back to my story..well to tell you one thing you can't regret anymore after hurting her feelings so much and that making her to think that i'm playing around with her..with all the stupid things i said and dumb question i ask her..there is no turning back now..the only way which i need to do is to bring her heart back to me..well it's kinda difficult to do that but if you have the heart to bring back her by your side it would be much more easier...never think about this kind of queation "wat if she don't wan me" or you keep telling yourself " if i wan her back into my side wat should i do"...DON'T YOU EVER EVER THINK ABOUT IT!!!! it doesn't bring her back to you..well you just got to stand up face it like a man and never give up hope on your relationship...I really do love her although time pass so fast..i just can't stop thinking about her...i only have a month to change myself and to bring her feeling back...honestly speaking i was as dumb as a donkey..way worse than a donkey..well no time to loose..wat am i waiting for Derek Shem chase her back to your side..??
Alright..i'll continue this true story of mine after listening to the song she like the most
here is the list of the song below it:

1)David Tao - Ai Hen Jian Dan
she really wan me to sing this song to her..although it's a mandarin song..
i'm sure i can do it..


2)Marcos Hernandez - The Way I Do
This is also the song that she wan me to sing so badly but i still can't catch the pitching part...
practice make perfect



to be continue..